A lot of the time these days, I feel, I spend most of my time getting out of everyone else's way. Be it in a metaphorical or physical sense. I know I don't have much of a physical presence nor do I look that intimidating, but why is it that when walking down a path is it always me that has to move out of the way for other people? It's starting to make me feel like people can see that I don't have much confidence about myself and are taking advantage of it by literally shoving me to one side. I feel invisible. Like I'm not worth noticing.
People are still talking over me when I'm trying to speak to someone and it throws the conversation straight off, so once again I just end up shutting up and i just keep to myself. And people wonder why I'm the quiet type and don't want to mingle much.
I've had a good few more experiences of trying to help people out and ending up making the situation worse, or just getting balled at for it. And every time it happens I feel lower than dirt. I feel like I've done them wrong and they probably feel that it was deliberate, or it's just me being stupid again - and let's face it they've got good reason to think that. I'm not exactly the sharpest light-bulb in the picnic... and I feel like I'm as broken as that metaphor.
Another vague, self-pitying rant but it helps a little.
